I have struggled on whether or not to write this post. I have debated whether this is the appropriate place or should I stick to a “blog-business-only” approach but my emotions won out. I can’t go on talking about my house, or someone else’s house, or anything else while my mind is preoccupied with a tragedy beyond my comprehension.
We went to the beach this weekend with a large group of friends and, as we were all packing up, one of my friends came and told me the awful news. A family that we know through our preschool had been involved in an awful car accident. The mom, Hadley was my son, Sullivan’s, preschool teacher this year. She has been at the school since my oldest son was there and she was the fun, bright, and bubbly teacher I always secretly wanted. She treated my Sully with nothing but patience and love this year. She was due with her second son in just a few weeks and last we talked, only a week ago, she was telling me how ready she was to have him. Her older son, Dobbs just so happened to be in my daughter, Harper’s, class this year. I can’t tell you how many times I heard Harper talk about Dobbs…”where Dobbs?” “Dobbs wear a diaper” “Dobbs my friend.” Sweet precious Dobbs did not survive the car accident. He was gone instantly.
Hadley was rushed to the hospital for an emergency c-section of baby Reed. Sadly he did not live either. He hung on for a couple of days but ultimately couldn’t survive the injuries to his tiny body. Hadley’s husband was in the car in front of her and his parents were in front of him. They all sustained minor injuries but that’s only physically. I cannot even begin to imagine the hell they are in right now. All the “whys” and what ifs” that must be going through their minds. An entire family forever altered.
I have struggled to have a single thought that doesn’t revolve around them. It seems like my entire community is talking about them and praying for them. I know that they have a deep faith and lots of support but I know that can’t touch what they must be feeling right now. Every time I picture Hadley’s sweet smile and easy breezy personality I cry again. And then I think of sweet Dobbs walking to his little cubby.
I can’t write a a blog post before getting all of this out and asking for any of you to also pray for them today and in the many many painful days ahead. If you feel inclined to help in some way there is a GoFundMe page set up here. I am trying to grasp what I can take away from all of this and it is only to be grateful for every second I have here on this earth with the people I love. It is to remember that bad things happen to good people and for reasons we can’t always understand right now. And that God never goes away and is in the midst of this very awful situation. Hug your loved ones and enjoy all the moments you have with them. Thank you for letting me use this place to vent and try to make sense of tragic situation.